To be honest...

I'm tired of trying to run home when things get a little rough here. And i'm tired of Satan trying to get me to give up and keep coming after me to try to break me.

I fall more in love with my Jesus each and every day =) Like I know Jesus is working in me and transforming me into someone he wants me to be. I just need to not want to go home every time one of my friends texts or calls me to see how I am. I need to realize that I do have a wonderful and amazing God that I can lean on, and for moral support I have wonderful friends and family GOd has blessed with me here at Masters.

Right now, I'm also really tired so I think I'm going to bed so I don't Bable anymore. haha

<3 night

Another Beautiful Day

Thank you God for another beautiful day.

So far today has been pretty wonderful and amazing. I cut my hair so it's actually raelly short and it's thin. I seriously continue to thank God for Kat. She's one of the best people to talk to and she gives me good advice, just like an older sister. She's taken the role and has so far been awesome at it. So last night I was actually considered the "older" sister. Turns out I was only sleeping for an hour. I went to bed at 12:00 and Kat woke me up at 1:06. But she was crying and needed a hug and prayer, So we prayed and we talked for a little bit, but I felt as though Kat and I have a great relationship were She can wake me up at like 1:00 in the morning and I'd be okay with it, just like Kat would be okay with me waking her up just to talk because something happened.

Thank You Jesus for all my friends at Masters & the best "sister" ever!

The wonder of it all....

Can i just say that although today started out like with clouds all over the place (although that was beautiful to) today at sunset I took like 30 pictures at my favorite place to be in the entire state of pennsylvania besides the battlefields. Honestly, I don't think we thank god enough for everything he's done. I mean look at this picture. The sunset and the tree, WOW. I couldn't help but be in awe that I was in the presence of something amazing God created on day 3. I don't know about the rest of you bloggers but I love being in the midst of God, especially around his creation.

Good night =)

Thank You

For this beautiful day Lord <3

Tanner Mott <3

This handsome young boy is my cousin Tanner.
He and I are very close. I don't know why he poped into my head today but I figured i'd write a blog about him. The last time I saw him when we I was leaving to come to Masters. Tanner was not very happy. He literally grabbed onto me and begged me not to leave. I gently pushed him off and picked him up, kissed his cheek and handed him to my uncle (his grandfather). Tanner just cried "talelynn, tatelynn please don't leave, come live and with me. We can go to college at my house" and with that said all I could do is simply walk out the door and cry.

Now, the main reason why i'm blogging about him and because in that situation he reminded me about Jesus. When I decided to leave the church and my faith, Jesus was like tanner, crying and sad that I walked out on him. Wondering when I would be home and be with him again. Asking questions to why I left. Jesus was like my cousin tanner when I walked out. He cried and didn't understand my reasons. Jesus had given me everything I asked him for and I walked out on him like he was nothing to me. There is only one difference between tanner and jesus. Jesus is the son of God while tanner is the son of my cousin david and donna. =)

I know that when I go home, tanner will come running to the door and hug me. Jesus did that when I got my life straightened up. These two people are very important to me.

& I will forever love them <3

To my dearest brother.

Dear Brian,
I miss you tons. But if that was going to be all in my letter, then this letter would be a total lie. The Honest truth, I don't like how you've been treating me. Ever since our parents joined together and we've became siblings you've acted as though i'm a misfit. I am your baby sister. I always will be. Yes, I am different, but you and I are the same. We both Love God. We both LOVE sports, and we BOTH work out. Why am I treated so badly? I ask you if you hate me and you reply "no". I ask again and you still reply "no". So If NO is the answer then why don't you hug me like you hug amy? Why don't you say "I love you too" when I say "I love you Brian"? Why is it that I feel like I need to buy your approval, your love? Why is it when you've had a couple drinks you actually pay attention to me and talk to me. Yeah your intoxincated when you say "hey" but you don't know that when you said "hey" I cherised that moment.

I cherish every moment because you never know when it will be our last. I love you brian, your my big brother. I wish you understood and listenend. I love your company when you come over and play monopoly with dad and watch boxing. I miss you when you leave because you are so awesome to be around. I love you my big brother brian.

Love,
your baby sis katelynn


Now......If only I had the courage to say this to his face, maybe our relationship would grow instead of deteriate. Please God, help me gain the courage to talk to him about this face to face.

Say goodbye if you've got someone to say it to.

I really miss these girls. & I really am starting to miss the summer where I made so many new friends. Come Back summer 08.


Although my summer was COMPLETLY filled with working at my job that I've had for 2 1/2 years, I really miss it. The girls, the kids, the cute little BBq's we had just because. The jokes and laughs about how Ian Klien was a stalker and was obessed with Krystina. WOW! Now that I think about it, even though my summer was filled with working full time with the hours of 9-6, My summer was actually amazing. And I think that only thing that made it amazing was that it was my last summer as a highschool student ever!!! Yeah I know I graduated June 27th, but it was my last summer being home, and Not in college. I must say, I think my summer was actually amazing.

Come Be the fire inside of me, until you and I are one

Today during Corem Deo Erica was saying how she feels that some of us are "sleeping". No not literally sleeping but spiritually. So she shared what was on her heart and that if we had that connection with Godwe'd praise and worship him whenever and we wouldn't mind it.

So during worship I just focused on God and he gave me a vision. A VISION! To be quite honest I didn't know it was from God at first, but I heard his voice. In my vision I saw my heart and beams of light setting off with every heart beat that my heart gave. Then God's voice said to me, My child this is your light you have for me. And let me tell you my light was not shining far, then my light got brighter and God voice spoke again saying "This is how I want your light to be, my daughter" and then he simply just said "I love you" and I felt him put his arms on my shoulders and my eyes started to tear up. With that I know that my light still shines I just need to make it brighter.

God i just want to say I love you and that for these next 9 months it wil just be you and I.

I can't believe

I truly can't believe how amazing and awesome God is. I was driving home and of course it was in the rain and I was listening to my ipod and I seriously was just amazed of the little rain that was coming down so lightly. WOW

Little things intrigue me. Like those mexican jumping beans, so thrilled. Give me a coloring book and my ipod when we travel and I'll be so satisfied it's not even funny!

Everyone is still at Pastor. Jason's house watching "The Office". Well since it is almost 11 oclock and it's thursday I think that they all may be on the way home. I have decided to not join them (as you can tell) because I am just not and "Office fan" and I really wanted to try to be a nerd and start my homework. Is that a bad thing??

Still deciding if I want to travel all the way back to Long Island for thanksgiving or stay here with family. Man Oh Man, I still have time.

Well i' officially going to bed. Night =)

First Time Ever...

I finally got a blogspot after a year of waiting for me to "officially" be a college student and get a new email. Apparently someone used my old email. Crazy. Crazy. Crazy. So sitting in the Masters Room eating a fantastic Hot Pocket I have decided to really stop writing this and enjoy everyone's company. And since i'm a hardcore blogger I will write again tonight. =) BYE!