Merry Christmas

So my family came over today for brunch and to take family pictures. Oh how i am so blessed with my family. Although everyone is growing up so fast it still feels great to hug my cousins<3

I love you.

James 1:12 <3

So my friend billy gave me this verse over spring break.
And at first when I looked it up it made no sense to me nor did I want to know what It meant. I guess I was just being stubborn and I put it away for a while.
Well I found the note billy gave me with the verse and I looked it up
and it said this " Blessed is the Man Who perserveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will recieve the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him".

MHM<3

I need to keep blogging.

My life becomes better when i pour my emotions out. Well, I am home. Back in New York on a fish shaped island. It was pretty Long and now i just crave a cup of tea. I'm thinking about treating myself out to dinner since my mom, dad, and nana are all going to a party. Which i guess i'm still concerded a Kid since i was not invited. That's okay. I will have my own party here with my 4 cats and a huge tv.

May i just say i really don't like xanga anymore. It's a pain and i feel so juveinel with it. Sorry charity! <3

But that's just me.
It's actually quite freezing here.
the island is covered in snow
and more snow is on the way.
JOY!
I love christmas <3

daddy daddy don't go

Daddy Daddy don't leave
I'll do anything to keep you
Right here with me
Can't you see how much I need you
Father listen
Tell him that he's got a home
and he don't have to go
Father save him
I would do anything in return
I'll clean my room
Try hard in school
I'll be good
I promise you
Father, Father
I pray to you


Please don't leave me.
I'm sorry that i said those things.
I'm sorry i tried to push you away.
Please don't walk out on me.
I just want to please you.
I want to be your princess.
I want to know my daddy.
Please.
Don't walk out on me.

SCREAMING MY HEART OUT

JUST SO I CAN LIVE

Face.

Beauty
pagents
kids
playground
broken bones
death
misery
paramore
band
music
life
baby's
family
I love you
true love?
exists
will i ever find it
hide and seek
games
board
wood
carpenter
jesus
Christ
savior
cross
necklaces
<3

venting!

I cried a little bit when i was on the phone with my mom
but then when my dad came on the phone, i just balled.
I don't like being away from the only people who can stand me when i'm
at my worst.
And believe me they have seen me at my worst!

But i'm in pain, which is so excruting i cry at night.
NO JOKE!
But i did go to the chichropractor and he did adjust me, but he said
that he wasn't going to rule out Kidney stones.
I almost cried when he said that.

I just want this pain our of me.
I want to work out
I want to do stuff
I WANT TO BREATH WITHOUT SAYING OW!

I want people to love me for me
I want to live for jesus christ.
I really don't like being in a season.

Oh i found a new way to vent.
So i might at as well...

Jealousy
Green
Ivy
Poison
Rats
Nutcracker
Old Fasioned
Style
paris hilton
scandal?
sandel
beach
waves
sun
breeze
young jeezy
rap
degrading
CSI
crime solving
labs
science
Test tubs
babies
parents
controlling?
remote
t.v
the office
dwight
d. eisenhower
america?
flag
pirates
peter pan
tinker bell
lost boys
pixie dust
broom and pale
blues clues
jazz band
trumpet
solo's
one
alone
lonely
just me =(

there ya go.
i love this new way to vent.
my friend showed me that
and today at Hoss's we played link which
is kind of how i vented.
So yes.
It's beautiful and yet helps me vent.
K good night!

how can?

Someone you were once "in love" with move on so fast?
It makes you think, if your good enough, or if your beautiful or worth it.
Although he wasn't anything close to perfect and
was the biggest jerk ever.
It still makes you think if your guy is out there.
If someone who thinks your so captiviating is out there waiting for you.
I wonder.......



alot

Dear best friends,

i love you so much.
You are incredible
I can't believe i have been blessed with such a great friend.
and i can't believe that we've been through almost everything and yet
still love each other just as much as we did before.

I love you so so so much<3

MY best friends
nicole.elise.cochrane.
matt.ragusa.
joe.cornetta.
nick.thomas.guider