Hey unfaithful

Hey un-loving i will love you.
And Jesus i'm ready to come home.

Let the light shine on me.

Dear God,
To be completly honest with you i honestly feel like you've abondended me. I let you take my chains and break them, and i stopped fighting you. You asked me to let you carry me, trust you, and lean on you. But for 2 weeks now, i've been feeling like you've left me flat on the ground to fend for myself. Are you breaking me? Are you tearing down my walls and rebuilding me? Are you stripping me of my past and who i thought i was? If so, then why do i feel so alone and forgotten?

Why do i feel like the ugly duckling?
Why can't i sleep at night, because i feel as though i won't make it through the night? That Satan will take this time to destroy me.

I try to be close, and i try to call out to you, but i fee like it's a waste of breath. That this isn't where i'm suppose to be. God, i thought you said you wouldn't leave me. You promised!

I don't know whether i want to run and hide, or hate you.
Hate is such a strong word, but it's getting to the point where my heart is starting to run cold. I don't want that, but why is it turning into that?

God Help me!
please, i'm loosing everything.
i'm slowly desingrating.
HELP!
i'm calling out of help with my last breath!
HELP!

Lead me to the cross

God bring me to my knees.
Bring me out of my comfort zone.
Help me to just acknowledge that my past is forgiven
that i am worthy in your eyes.
That i deserve better,
That i deserve a husband who you've picked out for me.

GOD BRING ME OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE!

Long time no Blog.

So mater's has totally gotten me crazy busy.
It's okay thought. Turns out i'm failing one of my classes, OTS to be exact and not to sure how i'm planning to get this one up. This is not high school and you don't have these classes for the whole year. DUH!? So we found out how i am failing, and it's because of tests. I freeze when I see them and my mind erase's everything I studied. LAME! But now that it's identified, i can work at this.

NO PROBLEMS!!!!!
i can do all things through christ who strengthns me.

So tuesday we met GAP Masters because they came to sit in an Catalyist Meeting (which is pretty boring in some parts) and like they are TOTALLY AWESOME!
It's like us Master's students, no matter where you go, click right away. Unless, the boys are not suppose to talk to the girls and vise versa, but even then the girls click with the girls. =D

I LOVE EVERYTHING
I LOVE NATURE
I LOVE GOD
I LOVE MASTERS
I LOVE MY FAMILY
I LOVE GOD <3

My daddy carried me <3

All today, my daddy carried me.
he didn't let me go.
I love you daddy

I'm not cool!

some people tell me that i look kind of funny
my nose is red and the braces don't work at all
they say the clothes i wear are all out of fashion
i don't fit in and should be shopping at a different mall
i studied classical piano
when i could've been playing guitar
i used to drive an el camino
and i'm not even sure it's car

Chorus:
i'm no cool but that's okay
my god loves me anyway
i'm not cool but that's alright
i'm still precious in his sight
i'm not cool but i don't care
how i'm supposed to do my hair
i'm not cool but that's okay
my god loves me anyway

it doesn't matter if i know all the lingo
he doesn't mind if i'm not hanging with a certain crowd
some people still believe in building an image
but i am finding that's a worry i can do without
i used to wish i was athletic
but football was never my game
i made some friends in mathematics
but no one can spell my last name

chorus

he says that i am a one of a kind
and i don't have to try to be somebody else
he believes in me and says i'm free to be myself
i can be myself

he isnt' perfect

but who is besides God?
my husband will never be perfect, but i love him.
God will be our provider and our match maker.

I can't wait!

Youth Group

Was amazing.
Worship was amazing.
God gave me a word for 3 girls. AMAZING
i feel free, amazing
Tons of Youth Worshiped, and some who never worshiped before did. AMAZING
GOD IS JUST AMAZING!!!



I LOVE YOUUUU <3
always. Forever. never ending.

I feel.....

So free.
Like my chains are broken
and the devil has no hold over me.
that God was finally like "that a girl, I got you. LEAN ON ME, TRUST IN ME"
Do you know how amazing that felt.
To know that.
To sing in my car with my windows down, lifting my hands off the wheel and praising GOD!!!
To be the daughter of an AMAZING KING!
Oh i love him soo muchhh <3

Don't tell me....

That I can't do anything, because......


deal!