is it normal?

Is it normal to not want to forget everything that's happened in the past? I mean well, the past 2 1/2 months. I'm starting to get use to this, and I'm starting to read him & not try to push myself on him. When he says he needs to go and he'll talk to me later, I'm okay with that when before I'd pretty much force him to talk to me, i guess that's why him and i fought so much. He needed time to blast music and think and be alright. I just want to be there for him. I care about him, I like him, I love him.

I don't want to attempt to say "goodbye" to him ever again since I really don't like those words. I just want him to be encouraged and know that I'm real and me being there for him is real. I want him and I to be okay, even if we have to start over (which we pretty much did).

I guess I really just don't want to lose him for good.
i really don't.